Hey guys! Presley here with some random thoughts that I have collected this whole past year. With the start of nursing school this Spring semester, being without a nurse for the past several months for Leo, etc. I have decided to throw out this idea that if I don't wake up and start my day at 6AM or earlier then I'm lazy, a failure, or not starting the day right. Growing up in the Crossfit&weightlifting community was such a blessing, but over time I think I decided that I had to completely fill out my day working towards something. Anything. Whether that was waking up early, doing morning cardio, doing meal prep, doing hours of training, being up and about doing anything to get myself out of the house. Working towards the end goals. Yet, now that I have Leo, a lot has changed over time, and my routines have changed. From a waking up at "5AMER" to getting up at maybe 7:30 and taking a nap shortly after that... It's changed completely, but so has my whole life! Let me explain - ![]() As you can see to the side, this is my morning routine when I do not have to work. (Wednesday-Friday). Actually I wake up around the same time when I have to work, and I perform the top 4 steps to my routine, and instead of taking a nap or looking through my daily agenda of what to do today - I start my day at work. Thinking about this versus what I used to do before Leo made me have real harsh comments to myself. Especially in the AM. Sometimes I'd sleep through my alarm and wake up at 8:00-9:00ish. I'd look at the clock and instantly had a bad start to my morning because of those negative thoughts I had to myself. I thought I had wasted a good couple of hours. I felt bad for Leo because his cares and feed would be late, and it just wasn't how I wanted to start. Fast forward just a few months later. I have come to realize that some of the content that is out there such as - NO REST DAYS, WORK THROUGH THE PAIN, etc. is extremely TOXIC and UNHEALTHY. What I failed to realize once my schedule changed and bringing Leo home was that I have to stay up until midnight for his last feed. I have to wake back up at 1AM to turn off that feed. Not to mention the multiple times throughout the night that I have to tend to either him, malfunctioning monitors, or just discomfort from sleeping on a twin sized mattress in my living room. I have been tracking my sleep history the past month and my average sleep time is 6 hours and 20 minutes total including 3-5 disturbances per night. The people who wake up before the sun rises (not trying to be offensive bc I was one of those people too!!), they most likely get to bed pretty early. As well as having a consecutive solid 7-8 hours of sleep like all people should. So yes, I could wake up earlier than 7:30 or 8 on most days. Yet, my "bedtime" is 12:30 with the anticipation that I will be up but a half hour or 1 hour later to tend to Leo's feed. So I have stopped making myself feel terrible for "oversleeping" when in fact it's not oversleeping at all. It's my body telling me I need this recovery because with every morning routine, there is a night routine - and my night routine doesn't end until 1AM. Moral of the story - don't beat yourself up, take recovery and your sleep seriously, your lifestyle is different than everyone else's, and honestly... no one cares if you wake up at 4AM or 9AM.
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